Self

I often complain that I don't know who I am.
Maybe the problem isn't that I don't know who I am,
But that I'm afraid that I already know,
And I really don't like myself.

I've tried numerous times to change;
To be who I want to be.
For me, not for others, but for me,
Or so I tell myself.

But every time I revert back to my old habits.
And I ignore my flaws,
Then I abhor my flaws,
And the cycle starts over again.